I have been reading a lot. I have picked up various genres
and authors in the previous few months and have moderately enjoyed all those
experiences. But I never completed any of those books. The list is kind of
long, it includes the House of mirth by Edith Wharton, Maine by J.C.Sullivan
and many more. If you ask me, why I never finished them, I wouldn’t have a
single reason to tell you why, nor am I in a reading slump (I have finished
multiple other books in the that time frame). Then, why was I unable to finish
any of these books?
It was the other day when I was reading the book, The
Solitary Summer by Elizabeth von Arnim, that I came to find the answer. In the
book, her character mentions how she picks up different authors off her shelf
depending on what she is feeling or where she is seated in her house. She talks
about leaving a book when its purpose has been served, and starting off a book
right in the middle when she feels like it. That’s when it hit me. That is what
I had been doing for the past few months. I was picking up books that I wanted
to read in that moment and was even making progress, but for no reason at all
would leave them once they didn’t appeal to me anymore.
This got me thinking, why didn’t I do this more? Why did I
feel compelled to ‘finish’ books just so I can claim that yes, I read? In this
online culture of constantly counting what you are reading, how much you are
reading and where you are reading it, we have forgotten the very thing reading
is not; a competition. I don’t think I should have to complete every single
book to say I enjoyed it or didn’t. I don’t think you have to finish every book
and mark it as read on your goodreads shelf to say that you read a book. Who is
keeping score of how many books you read to completion anyway? We have to stop
putting so much pressure on ourselves as a community and as humans. We have to make
sure that the platforms that bring us together, don’t make us lose sight of why
we are there in the first place. If a certain book appeals to you at a certain
point and time, I encourage you to pick it up and enjoy it to the maximum. When
it stops giving you pleasure, you can walk away, it’s okay to walk away. No one
is keeping score.